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I like to think that generally people intentions are good and for the most part I think this does apply. However I been known to pick men who intentions are not always the best and I stay blinded until eventually someone spills the bean. It hurts my pride I have to admit and I get pretty work up because a huge part of it is my insecurity within myself however my heart was in the right place. Of course its hurts me to know that well I was so concerned about another persons feeling they were playing me for a fool telling me lies having believe things just so they keep me around for their own pleasures . To stay it doesn't hurt would be a complete lie how ever I am now willing to take these experiences and grow from them they have only lead me one step closer to wear I want to be . Yes part of me wants to call him tell him I know about all his little lies and dog like ways however what good will that do? Its been said to me over and over since I was a child hurt people hurt people I now almost feel pity for him he took advantage of my kindness and used it against me I will not let that change who I am I will simply say yes it hurts that I was so fooled by you however I still wish you all that you dream of in this world I know that one day or maybe even now you will truly see who I am and I have doubt in my mind that you will regret losing me I know that I am pretty cool chic to be around and if you don't see that then it's on to the next or I am just fine being alone because one day I am certain I will meet my match someone who loves me just for being me ,even when I am acting a little out of character. You text me today didn't have that sudden urge to text you back but did eventually I am I less of a person for responding no I don't think so I think it might mean I sunk to your level if become bitter about it ? I think that one day when you get your life on track you might appreciate girls like me more but until then all the best may you have the world