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ok soooo where to begin. As much as I love her i'm really beginning to think that perhaps the puppy was a mistake but not in the fact that i can't handle her as much as it could be putting huge strain on my relationship with my boyfriend because i mean she's a puppy right? not very well house trained and chewing like anything she can or can't get her teeth on because her teeth are still coming in right?! so its getting rather difficult with him because he doesn't really want her and kinda was against getting her to start with but i mean he got his tv and monitor and cable and i thought it was time i deserved something i wanted. but he's getting to be on my nerves in many other ways too i just can't take the sex i know he wants it allll the time and i should be able to give him some some of the time but i just don't want sex, or anything to do with it i don't enjoy it i don't like it and he just can't get this i mean even kissing i don't like anymore or want to do i'm beginning to think again that ya its time to go single and probably just stay single. i mean it seems i can't make it to a year with anyome so maybe i should just go back to being single and having the "fun" when i want it

I was in the hospital earlier this week but not for my depression my stomach was giving me major trouble and thought they could figure something out but nothing came back so just thinking something i ate totally hated me opr some sort of stomach flu but the girl at work has been sick, our co op student has been sick on and off and of course with the close proximity etc we work in then its a no brainer that we share colds and just keep passing it back and forth, but my cough has been getting really really bad and now my nose is starting to act in and what not too so i think its my turn to get the full thing. but hey tis the season right?!

I just wish i could get some alone time. I"m heading to my folks place this weekend for just an overnight visit, i'm taking the pup with me so she can meet my mom and dad as well as the dog there and their numerous cats, but because of my crazy ass work schedule i only have a full sunday off as weekend...but i'm thinking of calling in sick for monday possibly then just coming back on monday night sometime - might be nice to take an extra day but i really need the money so i think i'll just do the over night thing, likely have a big sob session with my folks about everything because i feel i need a sob session, i hate depression and the way things just make it all seem so bad and terrible, i wish it would go away

work is going well at least even thouigh considering going back part time to my office job because the boss i currenlty have now i can't stand to be around that with this season coming its going to be rough because she'll be in a lot i have a fewwling well in like 2 wkends we have 18 dogs booked....18!!! thats 6 over our normal capacity and our holiday is only supposed to be 14 dogs so that'll be a nightmare and a half i'm sure.

i'm really beginneing to feel that things are just too much and i need to get a lot of stuff out and go minimilast just seems like there is soo much junk and crap and extra bits that are always stashed away or getting tripped over i wish i could sell my junk so that i can buy new stuff like i'd like to toss all my furniture...or most of it and get new or even used but matching stuff. linens and towels would be nice to have matching stuff. like just a simple easy life is what i'd like but get real right?! haha anyways i think i'm gonna get some rest and go back to bed, had a nap when i got home but i'm beat just too much. not to mention kinda didn't eat anything so not hungry thought. and as you can see the more i type the worse its getting so i'd best sign out and go get bothered by the sex hound and my poochy....cio for now. and for those of you who read my entries if you can offer any advice or feed back it would be soooo awesomely appreciated. thanks and best wishes to everyone! ttys