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So Far Gone
A page in the diary "A Journey Through Guidance"
Written by sadbuttrue April 4, 2010 16:57
I feel like I'm so deep into this depression. I feel like I'm detaching myself from everyone who matters in my life. I'm not doing it on purpose, and I cant control it! I feel like I want everyone to just go away and leave me all alone.
When I'm not at work, I'm sleeping 18-20 hours a day, or I'm in the bedroom playing on the computer. Amanda wants me to stay awake! She did research on the net regarding too much sleep and she is begging me to stay awake. She says that too much sleep can make me tired. But I'm sooooo tired, that's why I sleep. I go to the doctor in 3 days, I'll have to tell him whats going on. I'm having thoughts of dying again.