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I am guilty as well for being away from this board for quite sometime. I am glad some familiar names are still here. I am still struggling with my depression a year later, still on Cipralex but a few months ago had Wellbutrin prescribed in addition too. Been a crazy year with a lay off, a new job and 2 moves.

Anyways, I am here to ask if any of you have the same problems with friends when it comes to them understanding your illness and the choices you make to help yourself cope with daily life. I had a group of gals that I used to be social with some have since married, and had children; others still living the single party lifestyle. I have distanced myself since I find that thier lives are some what of a trigger for me. Some of the biggest things I struggle with are lonliness, lack of family & financial support and the fact that I am 35 divorced, alone and have no children. Also, I find myself so distrusting of men and the whole meet market scene; each time I try to go out I end up being so disgusted of the behaviour of men and woman at the bar; I am miserable. I want a family so badly, so when I am around my married friends I find myself getting really sad. Overall, they just can't understand what I am dealing with and the advice they tend to give is terrible advice and usually of a superficial nature.

How do I help these people understand or am I doing the right thing, and doing what is best for me?